Telling my story of rape to therapist12/30/2023 This is not normal behaviour of an adult human being, these sound to me like trauma responses. However, he seems desperate to want to control your behaviour and access to health services. Why would a person have issues with impulse control? Your husband couldn’t control the impulse to violate your private space, he couldn’t control the porn addiction for years. He processes things almost instantly, or talks things out with family. Unlike my husband, my processing 'process' involves a ton of thinking by myself, writing things down with journaling, etc. I was terrified of sex because of the sensations and as well as open communication and boundaries with my husband, writing got me out of my head and more comfortable thinking about sex when for literal months the very thought would make me panic. I've lost three pregnancies since 2021, which was hugely traumatic, and my libido went to 0 for months and months. ![]() Sometimes the fic I write is smut - more often it isn't! But even THAT was an issue! I went through some shit as a teenager and didn't even think I had a libido until a couple years ago. He would spend every moment he could watching and reading porn, would get anxious if he didn't think we were going to have sex that day, and has developed some pretty big insecurities as a result of his porn watching habits Which is why he feels insecure over literal pixels. He hid a porn addiction from me for YEARS. We actually have a fantastic sex life! Albeit stunted for others reasons (thin walls and live with family).
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